Sunday, November 27, 2011

With Thankfulness

What a year this has been....

I spent the last 3.5 days unplugged from regular life, from phone (no cell service), computer (didn't bring or borrow one), from day to day responsibilities except cooking and cleaning up after (and laundry, since our washer broke, we brought some). We packed up and headed to my family home and gathered together with family (only brother Steve was absent, but we'll see him soon) and some dear friends, ate, drank, and were thankful.

In the midst of a 3 day house party, I had some time to reflect on how very full this year has been. So much goodness, so much intensity, so very MUCH has filled this last year. In review:

  • We have a new family member, Luciana, who was conceived, carried, and born all since last Thanksgiving
  • My mama was diagnosed with, treated for, and is now just about in remission from breast cancer...just a bit more to go there, but all is looking so very good.
  • Patrick's fledgling new business celebrated one year in operation in October, and it was a very respectable first year.
  • We broke ground on a new garden and had just a few, but some amazing crops. Next year we'll be planting so much more.
There is always more that could be wanted, but really, in counting my blessings, my cup runneth over. We have stood beside loved ones and grieved with them their struggles and losses, some running so deeply, and can count ourselves lucky that this year we gained so much and lost so little. Not all years are like that, but for this one, I am truly grateful. Grateful to hold my loved ones close and grateful that I'm wise enough to be grateful for this.

I realize too, how lucky I am that going home to my parents is a peaceful, joyous thing. That it is sweet, and restful for me. I know not everyone is this fortunate.

Wishing you all a holiday season in which your cups too, runneth over.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Taking a breath, taking stock, and a full moon......

Waxing moon, November 6, 2011

I woke up this morning feeling a bit sorry for myself...I'm loath to admit this, I, who abhor drama (except on the stage and screen, then I love it), was indulging in a bit of internal woe is me.  

Then a simple comment about loss  from a loved one via facebook reminded me of how very richly blessed I am, how little I have to ever complain about, and I'm better again. Thank you, dear cousin, for the reminder.

Thank you also Amanda, for the reminder to sit and just breath once in awhile...I do still have time for that, within my very full days.

I will be 40 in two days, and for just a brief bit I chose to look at my accomplishments (or lack thereof, really, is what I was focusing on), and sigh and start a small pity party. But the gentle reminders mentioned above have me back on track, so I've decided to focus instead on the triumphs of the last 10 years, and here is a short list, in somewhat chronological order:

- Left my home town and established a new life on the opposite side of the country, complete with amazing friends and new work in an unrelated field.

-Started a family with my wonderful husband: we now have to gorgeous girls. I can't take a lot of credit for them, they are amazing in their own right, but I blessed to be part of their journey and it's a wonderful part of my life now.

-Harnessed my underfed creativity and channeled it into something that fits well into my life right now: cooking. I was an adequate cook 10 years ago, now I'm a great cook, and unafraid to adventure into uncharted cuisine territories.

- Started writing again...this blog is my main outlet, and I love it, though I don't land here as often as I like. I love to write, and it feels great to do it after little writing time for years.

I could probably add to this list, but this is good for now.

The icing on the cake is that I get a full moon for my 40th birthday. Diana was the roman goddess of the moon and of the hunt, so it seems somehow appropriate.

Do you have any accomplishments you'd like to celebrate?