Monday, March 15, 2010

52 Projects: Weeks 7 & 8, Rice Bag and Growing Up


I am a week+ late with week 7, and a day late with week 8, but here I am, just the same.

Last week, week 7 we worked on a very late gift (I won't confess just how late:-(, are you sensing the late theme in my life? ), and it was so simple, it's definietly going on our list of holiday handmade gifts. We received two of these 2 christmases ago (love you Cheryl!), hence the inspiration:

We made a Rice Neck Warmer. The kind you pop in the microwave for 3 minutes to sooth sore muscles, and by the way, they're great as winter foot warmers as well. This was so simple and fast. I took a scrap of flannel, 5" x 23" and folded it in half, wrong side out. Stiched up the long side and one short side. Then I serged the seam, but you could zig zag instead, to reinforce the stiching. At that point it looked like this:

Here's a close up of the serged edges. I want my own serger, this one has graciously been loaned to me.

And the we turned it inside out and filled it with about 2.5 pounds of rice. You want it to be full, but loose enough to bend around your neck or lower back. Then we turned the raw edges under, ironed them flat, and stiched it closed. That's it!

My week 8 project was much less tangible. I have been pondering this for awhile now (yes, I do a lot of pondering), and conversation with a dear, dear friend (if you're reading this, which I doubt you have time for these days, I love you honey!), solidified it for me.

This friend of mine and I were talking about some changes in her life (don't you just LOVE LOVE LOVE our friends for the mirrors they are for us?) and said something like (paraphrasing here, ) "I just don't want to work so hard to have people like/want to spend time with me."

My response was something like: "here's the person I want to be, am not yet, but am closer to than ever before in my life. I want to be the person who says, I'm pretty a fucking darn awesome person, and if you're a pretty fucking darn awesome person to, than we'll both recongnize that and want to hang around together, and if not, why bother."

Fairly simple (and excuse the profanity, but yes, I do sometimes talk that way), but such a revelation to me as it poured out of my mouth. Aha!

Fairly simple, not necessarily earth shattering, but wow, when I said it out loud, I just knew it was time. Time to start walking that talk. I have been anyway, but doing it intentionally is something more solid and profound. I have the good fortune of beginning some new friendships, and I'm too tired, my life is too full, for me to try hard anymore.

Time to JUST BE ME.

And to have that be okay.