It's Sunday night, it' s been a full weekend at home. The work week begins anew tomorrow. My weekends seem to fly by all too quickly, and then the week begins and I'm caught up in the seeming chaos of it all.
In an attempt to harness it somewhat, I sat down today, discussed the menu plan for the week with Patrick & Helena, and jotted down some priorities for the week. I tend to get home from work, or get to my mid week day off (yes, I'm very fortunate to have that!) and lose focus, if I had it to begin with. So today I set some of it down on paper so I would have a sense of what the focus should be for this week.
This was spurred somewhat by the angst I felt after finishing a great book, Craft, Inc by Meg Mateo Ilasco. I have always had a creative side, not always had a lot of confidence in it, but have been painting, sewing, and otherwise crafting since I was small. As a little girl I made dolls clothes, during the Cabbage Patch Kid craze, that I wanted to sell. They were pretty cute, but I never followed through with the marketing of them. There were some other attempts too. And lots of dreams. Not a lot of follow through. I've done a lot of personal growth work, soul searching, etc..., throughout my adult life and I believe I am a fairly self-aware person. But none of this has, to date, really helped me be effective in this area. And quite honestly, I'm sick to death of it.
I got the book because it seemed like having a step by step guide would be helpful, and in a sense it was. There's a lot of great information and stories in there. But it left me feeling pissed off and frustrated with myself. The information was good, some of it invaluable, but I lot of it I already know....enough to start, certainly.
This is a rambling post, I'll get to the planning soon, but at the moment, I continue to vent....
When I visited San Diego last month we got to see our nieces and nephew. I'm happy to say, that after a very tough couple of years, they seem to be doing really well. They lost their mother, my husband's sweet sister Val, suddenly in January of 2007. Clister, a young man in his early twenties, took over care of his two teenage sisters Melanie and Sharon, and is doing an amazing job. I'm sure it isn't always easy, but he handles it with class. While visiting with them, Clister handed us his newly released CD, Clister: Directions 2 Real. I have to say, I was floored, and a little ashamed. With everything going on in his life, he managed to write and record a CD. And here am I, still not doing my thing..........
So anyway, here I sit. Not beating myself up, but just tired of my own excuses. Not really sure where to start, but knowing that it's time to just start, and that something wilts in me everytime I fail to prioritize myself, and now I'm aching for water.....
Here's my week:
Pasta with Chicken, Red Sauce and Vegis (whatever we have) and Salad
Tomato Cabbage Soup with homemade bread
This is a favorite recipe, so here it is
1) Finely dice 1 carrot, 1 leek, well-washed and 1/2 bunch celery, including leaves. Saute in a soup pot with 1 Tb oil and 1/2 Tb whole fennel seed. When golden brown, add 8 c. water and 1 Tb pesto, if you have it, otherwise add 1tsp dried basil. Cover and simmer 1 hour.
2) Coarsely shop 5 c. fresh tomatoes. You need not skin them. (Or alternatively, add 1 qt. canned tomatoes, breaking up the tomatoes somewhat in the soup pot). Add to soup pot with 1/4 c. canned tomato paste. Cut up 1/4 small cabbage into 1" squares and add to simmering soup. Cook another 30 min. When cabbage and tomatoes seem done, add 1/3 c. white rice and cook 10 min more. The rice really needs to go in much earlier to be done on time.
3) Season soup with 2 Tb brown sugar, 2 tsp salt and 1 Tb lemon juice. Taste and correct seasonings if necessary. Garnish each serving with sour cream.
Roasted chicken, baked potatoes and Wilted Collard Greens
We're out for dinner
Cream of Quinoa Mushroom Soup with more bread
I made this about 5 years ago and remember loving it. I happen to have quinoa, so I'm making it
Pork chops, rice, salad
Priorities for the Week
Get in to the art room and start working on something again!
Clean out cabinets for Helena's room
Work on baby gifts
Weed and prep garden for planting this weekend (root vegis)
Plant onion starts
I still need to make a shopping list based on the menu, and other random items we're low on, but that's a good start, I think.... time to get to bed.