As 2008 draws to a close, I had thought to somehow chronicle the events of the year, or at least some of the highs and lows. But as I sit down to write today, I find myself inclined to reflect on the lessons I've learned this year....and so here, publicly, are at least some of them.
As I dragged myself kicking and screaming back into the working world, I learned that although I still preferred my life as a stay at home mom, I do enjoy the feeling of competency I have in the role of working woman, and I really like feeling at least somewhat in control of my financial future, instead of just being along for the ride.
I've learned, truly now, that I can choose and change my own actions and reactions, but I can't change anyone else's. And that the choices of others aren't a reflection on me. I still get caught up on this one at times, but more and more I'm able to step back before taking on anything I don't need to.
I've learned that there's not a lot of good for me in trying to please everyone, and that, selfish though it may feel and sound, I'm a better wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend, etc....when I first consider my own well being. This is a lesson in progress....the desire to please and keep peace is deeply ingrained in me, and it's work to change that in me.
I've learned that order and organization are utterly important to the flow of my days....I'm still working to implement this, but already, where I have, things work so much better.
I've been reminded that I don't have an infinite amount of time in this life, nor can I expect that others will be here forever for me either. I'm learning to have a balanced attitude about this...to try and say and do what I want now, while still remembering that I can't change others, only myself.
I'm sure there are other things, but these stand out mostly poignantly today.
Happy last day of 2008.